After finally getting to sleep last night at just after 1am (again), I slept fine most of the night (well morning) until sometime in the wee hours, I suddenly woke up to what I can only describe as a “fish doing a flip in my chest” …in my experience, I’ve had this once before several years ago, it’s the feeling when your heart suddenly “stuffs up” and misses a beat, and then you feel a huge “THUMP” in your chest. From my knowledge, Medically, this is called a PVC (premature ventricular contraction). Cardiac side effects are on the side effects list for Bupropion. I’m not sure if I should be concerned or not… It certainly makes me nervous.

Any-who, the rest of my morning “wee hours sleep ” was uneventful, and then I woke up at 6:30am to get my kiddies ready for pre-prep and my youngest to kindy.

So far this morning I have felt really quite “normal”, just slightly tired. Still no improvement in my cognition….
As I was reading an article this morning I was still getting lost with distraction (keep in mind I’ve been missing so much sleep of late.)

Took pill #3 today at 9:20am 22.04.13
Here goes another day.

9:30am Just started feeling that warm tingling in my eardrum and throat again.
….SO WEIRD.

10:45am feeling rather sluggish, and feeling very odd. Rush of cold warm (kind if like a heat rub) sensation all over body. … WOH… I don’t know what the hell just happened…! I just experienced something very odd.. I just experienced what felt like a tingly hot and cold heat wave that Kind of burnt… All over as a wave of sensation, it was felt the strongest in my chest. only lasting 15 seconds, it was extremely frightening. It felt almost exactly the same as when you get dye injected when going for an MRI or CT scan…

11:45 feeling very on edge and anxious after that experience an hour ago.. I can’t believe that was and hour ago, my sense of time perception is really dysfunctional right now as I only thought it happened 5-10 minutes ago until checking the time.

I’m really starting to feel the full throttle of Bupropion and I don’t like it. If this keeps getting worse I’m going to have to stop, or go to a hospital for evaluation as I’m in a panic. How I’m writing this, I don’t know. I hate the fact I’m home alone, I’m scared… What if I have a big seizure?? I’m laying down in bed in case I do have one. I wish there was someone here.

2:00pm and finally feeling a little better. Although that horrible and frightening sensation is gone, I still feel antsy, agitated and on the edge.

I feel a bit seedy at the moment, I guess it’s got to do with the fact I’ve had probably less than 10 hours sleep in the last couple of days….Id describe the feeling as, It’s like when you were a teenager that has been up all night using caffeine to stay awake.. When it comes to finally trying to go to sleep, you feel totally seedy, but there is NO chance of falling asleep. This feeling is sucky. I feel trapped in this awake world when what I desperately need is sleep.

3:20pm, noticing a bitter chemical taste in my mouth. Not affecting the way food tastes though.

4:00pm, tried to sleep/catch up nap… Still can’t relax or sleep at all.

5:20pm…wow, what a difference a few hours can make! After that terrible experience at 10:45am.., well.. I feel amazing! I feel like I have so much energy, I’m no longer anxious, my appetite isn’t very big either, which is a plus! I feel a sense of well-being. My dinner is sitting in front of me, and instead of scoffing it down, I’m able to update my blog. Usually I wouldn’t be able to resist the food and would have eaten it before I updated this post. I really hope the side effects are going to ease up on me from now on. I’m sure I’m probably going to have a few more bouts of anxiety before I get use to this.
I Still have a feeling sleep is going to be out of the question tonight too 😦

Didn’t get to sleep until about 1:30am! 😦

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